I wrote recently about how I’ve been feeling a change beginning inside of myself. I wasn’t entirely certain what that meant when I wrote it, but now, many weeks later, things are beginning to take a bit more shape.
That is, The Universe has given me a big old knock on top of the head — again. To be honest, I’ve received these knocks before, and have either ignored them or told myself that they were something else entirely. Or I’ve made small, feeble attempts toward change that never ended up lasting.
There are things that need to change in my life. The changes won’t be easy — change rarely ever is. I will want to abandon the plan rather than pressing forward. I am certain that more than a few tears will be shed. I will doubt myself on more than one occasion — of this I am sure. The only thing I can do is keep my mind focused on The Big Picture, which will make all the discomfort and tears and doubts worth it. For me and for my family.
The first step in all of this is acceptance. Acceptance of my situation and the people in it. Acceptance of limitations — both mine and theirs. Acceptance that I can’t control others, only myself. Acceptance that I can’t change others, either.
It’s a tough life lesson, but one that I need to learn.
I’m ready, Universe.