I haven’t been blogging about it a whole lot but I haven’t been well this winter. What I thought was another bout with anemia turned out not to be. Long story short, ever since the marathon last fall, I’ve been feeling worse and worse. Exhausted all the time, headache-y, irritable, unable to deal with stress. My running has basically stopped since then; I lacked the energy or the desire to keep getting out there. It’s a rotten cycle to be in — feeling stressed but lacking the energy to go for runs, which are my main method of actually dealing with stress. So yeah. Not good.
After a visit with my naturopath she diagnosed me with adrenal fatigue; likely caused by a combination of marathon training and then a couple of extremely stressful months at work. There’s been a lot of personal stress, too, what with CBG moving in and other happenings in our life. The personal stresses have been good ones, but they all still have the same effect on the body. I also suspect seasonal affective disorder might be at play as well, since thinking back, I’ve noticed that my pattern is often that I feel like crap during the winter months. I always blamed it on other things — depression, anemia, adrenal fatigue in the past as well — but it seems like much too much of a coincidence to me that these things only seem to hit me when they days are short and cold.
For the past 5 weeks or so now I’ve been on an intensive vitamin therapy regime from my naturopath. Every week I’ve been getting IV vitamins in addition to the vitamins I’ve been taking orally. This is hard-core stuff, often used to treat people with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue and cancer.
And adrenal fatigue, apparently.
Just this past week I’ve finally — finally!! — been feeling like this treatment is having the desired effect. Twice last week I went out for a run. They were both short, but they were something — the first time in a very long time that I’ve had the energy and the desire to get out there. My mood has been improved, and I just feel so much more optimistic about life than I have in a good long while.
I feel almost like I’ve been under the cover of fog for months now, and that I’m finally climbing up out of it. I’m finally starting to again feel like the bad-ass who ran a marathon last fall.
I’m not back to 100% by any stretch, that’s for sure, but I’m seeing definite glimpses of the “old” Sunshine. And damn, it sure is glad to see her.
After taking a couple of months off, I’m definitely feeling ready to start kicking some ass again. I made a promise to myself, after all.