There are lots of things about being a single mom that can be challenging. Getting personal time is definitely one of them. Because of the way my life is scheduled, I don’t often get a weekend day to myself. My weekends are generally either spent with my daughters or with CBG. This weekend, however, being Father’s Day, meant that I was able to get a rare Sunday all to myself as my girls went off with their dad for the day.
I knew that I wanted to spend this day nurturing myself and doing things that would make me happy.
I dropped the girls off with their dad at 8:45-ish or so, and headed out on an epic run. I’ve been toying with the idea of running a full marathon in the fall, rather than just a half, and so I’d decided that Sunday was going to be the day that I would try to gauge how much more training I have to do in order to get there. I dropped off the girls and headed out, armed with a fresh running playlist on my iPod and a brand new running outfit.
I ran 34 km (which is just over 21 miles, for those of you who need the conversion). I felt like a million bucks the entire way. I was strong and felt great the entire time. I tackled several big hills without stopping to walk even once. It was a great feeling — one of those awesome runs where I felt strong and happy the entire time….I felt like I could have kept running forever.
After my run I had a soaked myself in the tub for a good long while. Then I headed over to a nearby park with my book and some music and just sat in the grass and enjoyed the sunshine. I haven’t been making enough time to read lately and it feels good to be able to take some time for that.
I came home and tackled the mountain of dirty laundry and some other lagging housework. Nothing makes me crazier than living in disarray. The apartment has gone downhill a bit in the last week or so, and it felt great to get things tidied up and organized again. Having those things taken care of helps to calm my mind.
I settled in and watched “New Year’s Eve”, a movie that I’ve wanted to see for a while now but haven’t watched; I was waiting to see it with CBG. He told me a little while ago that he wasn’t really interested in seeing it, so I watched it by myself. As cheesy as it was, I have to admit that I enjoyed it. It would have been the kind of movie that he would have hated, however, so watching it by myself was a good call.
I cooked myself a healthy dinner and enjoyed every single morsel of it.
I ended my day with some yoga and hitting the hay early.
All in all, it was a pretty damn perfect day of “me”. I realized yesterday that opportunities like these are going to become even more rare once CBG is here with us. Just so we’re clear, I’m not complaining, just thinking about how I need to make an effort to appreciate days like yesterday when I do get to have them. Even with a blended family, they will still be a rare commodity. Life is changing, and as I see these changes unfolding, I realize that they will require effort to re-evaluate and rework life. A new normal will need to be found.
But for now, I get to enjoy life just as it is.