Happy September 1st.
Nine years ago today I got married. A new chapter. A life together with another person. Eventually we almost ended up destroying one another.
Today I am at home, recovering from a tubal ligation. No more babies for me. I feel like this is another new chapter for me. A new chapter of independence, strength, of taking care of myself. I’ve been doing it for a good long while now, but there’s nothing more empowering than taking your fertility into your own hands.
Nine years ago I had no idea what life had in store for me. It looks much different than I ever imagined that it would. Single motherhood definitely was never part of the plan. But that’s how life is, isn’t it? If we knew what was coming we might never have the courage to get up in the morning. Or more importantly, we might miss out on learning the lessons that we very much need to learn.
I have no regrets about my marriage. I have two beautiful daughters. I have a parenting partner who I finally – FINALLY! have a solid, genuine friendship with. I have learned so much about myself and the person that I am, and the person I want to become. I know without a shadow of a doubt the example I want to show my daughters.
“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.” – Alexander Graham Bell
Life is too short, too complex, too beautiful for regrets.
Bring on the next chapter. I’m ready for it.
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