I made an important decision today, one that is going to have a big impact on my relationship with CBG, and likely a big impact on my life in general.
I’m done whining. I’m done moaning. I’m done wailing and feeling sorry for myself. I’m done wishing for things to be different.
It’s time to accept this relationship for what it is. This is my reality – at least for now. Hopefully someday this will change, but in the meantime, I need to enjoy what I have. Period. The End.
No, the situation isn’t perfect…but who said I was looking was for perfection here, anyhow?
My little weekend ego temper tantrum caused CBG to be more than a little concerned. Was I re-thinking things? Was I going to suddenly decide that I couldn’t do this anymore?
No!! No way.
The day I decide that I can’t do this anymore is the day I decide to find a way for us to be together full-time, period.
I’m in this thing. I lost him once…and I refuse to let that happen again. Not gonna happen. This is too important, too amazing. Life and love are too precious to squander.
This relationship is what it is. And you know, for the most part, it’s pretty freakin’ great. So really, what do I have to whine about? I’ve got two beautiful daughters. I’ve got a pretty decent life that I am pulling together and shaping into everything that I ever wanted it to be. And I’ve got a man who loves me tremendously, and who is willing to endure hardships for us to be together.
I don’t need anything more than that right now.
So while I know that negative days will come again, I’m done dwelling on those feelings. I’m just done. And if I start up with the whining any time in the immediate future, you’ve all got permission to kick my ass.
Sometimes a virtual kick is just what a girl needs. 😉
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