It’s been quite the few days in my world. There’s so much that I could say…so much that I’m feeling right now.
I’m seeing CBG this weekend.
I am going there to give us both the opportunity to re-visit things again…to see if we can make this work.
It’s been a long two and a half months since our breakup. Some things have changed for the both of us…but then… some things haven’t. We’re approaching this weekend without expectations, without knowing how it will ultimately end up…but we are both willing to go into this with open hearts and minds…to see if we can make this work after all. To see if we even WANT to make this work after all.
We’re both feeling pretty terrified about the prospect of getting hurt again…and of hurting the other person again. I can’t keep looking back into the past or projecting into the future…because the only thing I have is what’s in front of me right now. What I do know is that CBG and I connect in a way that I’ve never connected with anyone before, or since meeting him. No, it wasn’t perfect, and yes, there are obstacles…but aren’t relationships about caring enough about someone to work through the rough patches and overcoming the obstacles?
I don’t know what this weekend is going to bring for the two of us.
Then again….maybe everything.