When I went to bed last night I started thinking more about What I Want.
It occurred to me that I need to spend a little more time thinking about what I have in my life…because I have some very wonderful things.
– First and foremost, I have possibly the two most wonderful children on the planet. They are lovely, they are beautiful, they are the light of my life and my reason for pushing forward in life and wanting to do better for myself.
– I have some very wonderful friends. It’s been a hard year in terms of my friendships, and in a lot of ways my life looks very different now than it did a year ago. I am okay with that. I have met some great people, I have reconnected with old friends, and I have built up some other friendships in the last little while. I feel very blessed.
– I have reconnected with CBG in recent weeks. I haven’t been blogging about it much, out of respect for privacy (on both our parts). Things are still very much up in the air and I don’t know what is going to happen with us. I am grateful for this reconnection no matter how it ends up – it has been good to talk and clear the air a little bit more, if nothing else. What the future holds in that department I have no idea. I am in “wait and see” mode.
– I am feeling stronger now than I have in possibly the last year and a half of my life. I’ve had a rough go of things, but life is finally starting to make sense. I am settling into my life. I am figuring things out. I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I’m gonna be okay.
No, life isn’t perfect right now. It’s a helluva lot better than it’s been in a while. I know that it’s only going to keep getting better. I know that I will be faced with difficulties and hard times again in my life. It’s okay, though – after everything that’s happened to me, I know that I will make it through whatever life happens to throw my way.