I Have a Date

Well….kinda, sorta, but not really.

A few weeks ago I did a stupid thing and joined an online dating site. Truth be told I was feeling kind of sorry for myself about the whole T breakup thing, and thought that going on a date or two (nothing serious) might be a good idea.

Dating websites are creepy places, people. Maybe someday I’ll entertain y’all with the tales of why I left, but I’ll skip that for now.

I met one decent dude on there and we started talking. Just regular stuff – he’s really funny, we have lots in common, same sense of humour, and everything. Adorable as all get out.

After a few email conversations I mentioned about me having kids (which I knew he would have seen on my online profile anyhow). He told me that he’d been thinking about it a lot, and that he didn’t feel like he was in a place in his life where he was ready to take on that kind of responsibility. Said that he felt like a complete tool saying it, but wanted to be honest because there as a whole lot at stake.

Well. My respect for the man went through the roof with that statement. I can totally respect someone being upfront about that. I told him that I really liked talking to him, and asked if we could be friends….and he said absolutely.

In the past couple of weeks we kept in touch here and there, but nothing major.

Last night after I got home from yoga and a “tea&therapy” session with a dear and wonderful friend of mine, I hopped online and happened to see him on msn. I decided to say hi, and tease him mercilessly about having nothing better to do on a Friday night, and we just started chatting away.

And that’s when the flirting began. Harmless flirting – the kind that leaves you walking away smiling and feeling pretty darn good about yourself. And ya know what? After the week I’ve had, I deserve that, and have absolutely NO GUILT about it.

By the time the conversation had ended, we’d decided that there was no harm in two friends going out for coffee and a little conversation. We both know the deal – it’s not going anywhere – and for good reason. I don’t want a guy who doesn’t want to “do the family thing” anymore than he wants a gal WITH a family. The thing is, though, he’s a really cool guy and he really makes me laugh, and if nothing else, I’ll get to get out for the evening and make a new friend in the process.

And where I am right now, I need all the friends that I can get.